Where Do I Go Now?
This is the question I keep asking myself about this blog. Where do I go now? In the last post I said that I wanted to talk about God and the spiritual journey from now on because that was the subject that was interesting to me. Since then I’ve been wondering how to do this. I’ve gotten lots of emails from people encouraging me to keep going but I just don’t know where to start. Plus I usually like to avoid controversy. Then this morning, I was praying about it and I kept hearing this one short sentence in my mind saying, “Just go.” It kept repeating in my head and it made me think of all the times that Jesus said to just go.
“Now go, and remember that I am sending you out as lambs among wolves.” Luke 10:3
It became more and more clear that I didn’t need to know where I should go, just that I should start going. It’s funny but I used to give this same advice to people asking me how to start a graphic novel. My answer was always to just start it already.
It seems in life like I am always called to “step out on faith” and allow God to work. It’s only in hindsight that I can look back and say “Wow, that was a pretty good move!” but in the moment it always seemed like a big risk. Even stupid at times to everyone around me.
This has always been a great challenge for me as I have pursued a creative path in life. You see, there are lots of voices in our heads telling us what we want to hear. Almost all of these voices are completely selfish and destructive, leaving a wake of carnage behind anyone who listens. Oh, but they are so seductive aren’t they? Just look at television commercials and you will see an industry built around feeding these seductive voices in our heads telling us what we need and what we should be like and look like. “It’s okay to want EVERYTHING!” they say. “You deserve it.” But what these seductive voices fail to mention is if we listen to them, we are only being lead to want more. And soon we are in chains to their every command. All because we listened to these self-focused voices in our heads.
Okay, I’m getting off track here. My point is, I want to listen to the right voices with my art and life.
This may sound like a bunch of hocus pocus if you aren’t a Christian but we believe that the Spirit of God works in those who believe what Jesus said. This Holy Spirit, as we call it, leads us if we allow it. The thing is, it’s always about stepping out on faith. To just go. Honestly, I did the same thing when I started reMIND. I can plan all I want, but at the end of the day my secret weapon is that I just try to listen and follow where the Holy Spirit is leading me and I try to ignore all the other opinions.
So, I am just going. This blog post is me stepping out on faith. reMIND was me taking a step. Starting Sithrah was another step.
In other words, I understand what I’m getting into. I know talking about subjects like religion, faith, God and Jesus are going to cause controversy and a full range of emotions from people. I get that. And quite honestly, with all the hostility on the internet, I feel like I’m going to be one of those “lambs among wolves” that Jesus was talking about. But what’s the point of all this if we believe in something and can never talk about it?